guys i'm really talking right now

this is #realtalk this is what i've learned:

1. "blessed are the forgetful"
2. you have to lose yourself in order to find yourself
3. you is kind you is smart you is important
4. if i write from my heart my soul won't be hard to find
5. moments are memories our eyes took pictures of
6. to be honest i don't really know how love works. but it works.
7. the only nature we wake up to are the tweets coming from the inside of our drawers instead of from outside our window.
8. don't be scared of the edge
9. if your mind says no your <3 is probably saying yes so do it anyways.
10. tell yourself your a champion at least once a day
11. the wee voice came back b/c your soul somehow depends on it
12. savor obscurity while it lasts b/c that's when all can be revealed to you
13. love is like tape
14. falling off a cliff is a lot like falling in love - it's all about the unknown baby
15. hipsters are indie-viduals too you know
16. maybe if i pretended i was fearless i'd become it
17. be real
18. screw everyone else and freaking live
19. "death is the greatest invention of life b/c it motivates you to live your life how you want to. It helps you follow your <3" ~ nelson
20. my bones held me up when my head & my heart said "we can't"
21. Rosa Parks & Martin Luther King Junior ily
22. my heart told me she loved me
23. taking risks is contagious
24. rogue planets got kicked out of their own galaxy
25. when i snooze i don't lose cuz i still get up
26. if i found out i was going to die i would finally start to Live
27. still trying to decide, what am i??
28. i'd rather be 97 cents than a dollar
29. how free & alive i feel at dances
30. deliberate by amy uyematsu
31. i don't care anymore
32. sometimes the silent voices make the biggest difference - RIP johnny ellis
33. reminisce: it's good for you
34. this is for you. this is for those chasing the wrong dreams
35. love people. change the world.
36. some things are not important
37. inspiration will leave you.
38. "if you want to be successful you gotta want it as much as wanting to breathe"
39. the life we have ahead of us is real & everything we've done here in HS is fake.
40. i hope we we realize we are the future before it's too late.
41. i will never sleep in my room again. and if i do it wont be the same.
42. everything is assumed.
43. have fun
44. there's so much we have to discover. there's so much nelson didn't get to teach us.
45. life is full of paradoxes.
46. we were made by a Creator. We Are Creative.
47. i need to dye my hair or kiss a boy
48. just because i have courage doesn't mean i'm not afraid.
49. i am much more than just a speck
50. i will miss this class

memories of my eyes

these are the things my eyes remember
these are the glimpses they flash back to. 

I remember her saying, 

"I have a bad habit of taking pictures of strangers because I believe you should acknowledge everyone you come in contact with." 

I remember sitting in class and watching a boy gasp for breath, hands shaking because he had just spoken in front of the class. I remember watching him and knowing what that felt like. 

I remember the family who came into Taco Amigo. 

I remember because they were on food stamps.

I remember because the mom looked at me ashamed - and I didn't know what to say.  

I remember when I wrote you a 'get well soon' card but you died before I could give it to you. 
(and it's still hanging on my magnet board in my room.) 
I remember watching the white balloons float up towards the sky I remember because the sun was shining on your little spot while someone sang towards the sun.

I remember the note I lost & never found. 

I remember when you first moved here and I made you laugh. I remember because I thought we'd be friends by now.

I remember when growing up was only a dream away.

I remember seeing kids running through the hallways with their friends.

I remember because I saw guys with their mission calls laughing at them. 

I remember seeing kids sitting alone in the hallways and refusing to look up. 
I remember feeling so overwhelmed with sympathy for them that i walked past with tears in my eyes.

When she broke up with you at the dance and you stood there as she walked away, not knowing what to do. I remember your eyes. i've never felt true love but i remember my heart breaking for you.

I remember my sweet friend at the old folks home. 
I remember visiting her room and sitting in one of her rocking chairs. 
I remember laughing with her as if I was already old, as if time had no end, as if worries weren't a thing.

I remember the wyoming night sky. 
I remember because it had never looked so beautiful and if I could, i'd go back to that moment when life was perfectily still and I could finally see Heaven. 
When there were no lights 
no homes 
no planes 
no sound.

these are the things my eyes remember

these are the glimpses they flash back to. 

these moments, these places, these people, remind me that others feel too.

i think these moments change us. 

everytime we get a glimpse into someone elses life, we get a glimpse of ourselves. 

these moments are raw. these moments are real. 

i dont even know if this is making sense to you... ---  I don't even know how to say this to you --- but it's all about theses moments; the glimpses we're privileged to see in each other. 

that's why i remember her saying, 

"I have a bad habit of taking pictures of strangers because I believe you should acknowledge everyone you come in contact with."  

because we're all intertwined in this big thing called life and these moments 

are memories that our eyes took pictures of..

and before we know it we're gone. we're dead. life's over. 

and all we saw and all we knew were those small, insignificant moments that went unnoticed by most, and noticed by some. 

so since we're all graduating and life is going by way too fast, 

~always remember this. xoxo

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